It’s been a rollercoaster of a few days.
When I had got the Death Owl that day I felt that the nightmare that I had never really recovered from was happening all over again. Charlie was already gone… and now Ron… No, it couldn’t be possible.
This would tear apart our family.
Percy had died for me the day he betrayed us for his greed for power. And Charlie was gone too. With Ginny in the condition she was in and now this… It was hard to imagine life ever going back to the way it was.
At first the shock was so great that I felt no pain. I was just numb with shock. But then the reality crashed down on me like a tidal wave. Ron was dead. My youngest brother was dead.
The tears came then, and it seemed they would never stop. I don’t even remember most of it. I just remember Fleur holding me tightly and letting me cry.
And then we heard that it was all a mistake… that Ron was actually alive. At first it felt like some horrid joke, but a part of me so badly wanted to believe it. I can’t ever tell you how it felt when the news was confirmed. It felt like he was born all over again.
I had gone to visit him on Friday. I almost didn’t recognize him. His body was so battered and broken and it seemed like he was fighting for every breath he took.
But he was alive! And that’s all that mattered.
I have never really been a major part of Ron’s life. Whenever he has needed me I have mostly never been there. When the news came that he had died I had so many regrets. I knew that I would never be able to forgive myself for my actions.
I don’t plan to ever make this mistake again. I will do what is needed to improve my relationship with him.
Maybe this is a new beginning… maybe this miracle is what was needed to make everything better. I can only hope that’s so.
On other topics, my services as Curse Breaker had recently been requested by a Miss Brown, apparently an old classmate of Harry’s. She had been having trouble with her ex-husband who was making a nuisance of himself and dropping into her flat uninvited. She wanted me to set up wards around her flat to keep him out.
It wasn’t a very difficult job and I had the new wards set up pretty quickly. No uninvited guests will be giving her any trouble now, and if they do they will get a few very nasty surprises.